{/Self Control
Sunday, December 6, 2009 ( Sunday, December 06, 2009 )
I haven't touch my tutorial for this week yet. Glance through the pfp and fa tutorial, I know that's it. Mostly thinking questions. Not that I don't like to think but if can copy straight from the lecture, why not? These days they want to move away from rote learning and gain knowledge from other sources. I am not really supportive of this as my mind is not that flexible. So what should I do for the tutorial... If I don't touch them, e tutor may check and said why u nvr do. If I force myself to try, I know mostly are from my common sense and crapping. I won't do that unless I have no choice. For example, I still remember back in year 1 this subject known as Principles of Management. I studied like crazi cos my coursework onli B+ and I wanted to score an A. There was a question which I could not answer and I recalled skipping that portion when reading them. No choice crap out some common answer. In the end, I got my A. Not sure if it contributes a part though.
The title self control means that I have to restrain myself from wasting my time. Playing PSP games seems to be the main culprit for now. Previously, it was the case of watching television shows. There aren't many good shows now except to watch online which I find it as a bother. So my solution was to dig out the battery and keep it away from e console. Really, I must start to clear my outstanding list now.
{/A better understanding
Saturday, December 5, 2009 ( Saturday, December 05, 2009 )
Recently, I did what I usually don't do which is asking others out. So what's the big deal? Most of the time is people invite me and not the other way round. Previously, I like to travel around solo kia everything want to know. Now, I have a change of opinion. Maybe because of the internship affect me to think this way. I like to harp over things which are over. Looking back made me feel great and at the same time bad. It's true that I survive the 3 month that and score pretty well on paper. But I know they just gave me chance and I was not up to it. Self-critical is my process of growing and improving. I learn quite a lot of things from this 3 months which others might have know since long ago. The reason is I don't get this type of exposure and I am a 'suan' ku.
Initially, it was still ok and happy go lucky me going to work. But after liaising with other seniors, I had a whole new perspective of working life. Is it everyday u are a robot and have a routine manual? No, that's sick if you repeat it over time. I learnt from them various things and seriously very thankful of them. I think it's time for me to look other for people around me and not being too self-centre. Sometime being in your comfort zone would not make you grow.
Yesterday, I had a talk with my friend. This is probably one of the longest conversation since knowing her. Saw her maturity of thought after some months in the company. Gave me a fresh perspective of thoughts regarding the above thoughts. Gave me some pointers on that too. I remember one thing she mentioned which I thought was good. Luck= Opportunities + Preparedness. It seems that I have the preparedness factor in me but lack of opportunities. How to build up this chance is another issue and I shall not disclose. For me to know and practice only :)
Today, I met up with another friend. His ideology was different from my previous friend. He said that friends are like contract. Once the contract expire, it depends on if you want to renew. Sound interesting right. His approach is more pragmatic and I to an extent agree with him. So now I am a bit confused to whose it right and which is better. Should be my way is better. I shall reflect on what they said and think about it. For now, I better go chiong my tutorial. Ciao...
{/My Call
Thursday, December 3, 2009 ( Thursday, December 03, 2009 )
I don't like to make decisions affecting other people. Maybe decisions that I have made will offend other people. Cleaning up the mess is equally bad cos I dun noe how to resolve them. The worst thing is nobody wants to be in your shoe. Quote an example: Year 1 forming a group was random pick. Luckily all was ok and the members are easy to get along. There was another time when I have pushed the group to get along cos they will not moving. Don't like to be a coordinator and a leader cos commanding the rest is hell of a task. One to one is still pretty alright. Now I have to make a decision to choose members. Should be easy if you have friends in the class. Problem arises when both parties are equally not so good jiao qing. Then how? One place or another might offend the other party. Dilemma, dun noe who to choose? I think let nature take their due course. Worrying about that is no use at all.
Independent is the key to success. I always rely on my instinct to tell me what to do. Shall trust it one more time. Becoming a bad guy is part and parcel of life.
{/Good to be back
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 ( Tuesday, December 01, 2009 )
After 3 months working at PwC, it really feels good to have a break after the internship. It's true that project beckons but being a student is much easier than an auditor. The responsibility is a far cry from each other. Seriously, finding the joy of studying is good. After the 3 months n 2.5 year in tp, I have sort of accept that I will be going down the path of account/finance sector. One missing element which I find from the work is motivation. Initially, the idea of auditing a company attract me to wonder the various test being conducted. After learning all these skills, I found it hard to re-ignite the interest I had. I think this few months of work have me understand more of the real working life of an adult. Given a choice, I rather study than work cos the atmosphere is entirely different. This 3 months had sort of me allow me to reflect on my choice and learning to appreciate.
I imagine myself in 5 years time working and craving a career. But for now, i will seriously learn to appreciate every moment that I have to study. Time will tell everything and I shall wait for that day to arrive...
{/A right to be optimistic
Saturday, November 14, 2009 ( Saturday, November 14, 2009 )
This is because the past few days have not been so smooth. As the sayings goes, you can't expect anything worse when things are already bad. Why is it bad? Maybe because of the environment and mainly luck factor. I do believe in this luck issue. A series of good performance can simply be attributed to the feel good factor. But when lady luck is not at your side, try so hard also not use. One way to have lady luck smiling on me is to invite her by being cheerful. I did some window shopping and checking out some stuffs which I have been craving for. Especially when I go to this particular shopping centre, I soak into their atmosphere and I will feel much better after a walk. LOL. I don't know why but this is quite true for me.
2 things which I am looking for this period. A camera and a wallet. The former has already been confirmed by doing some research. I have to change my wallet since it has already open mouth cos of the stitch. Branded one seems quite x and from some online users comment I agree with him too. He said that even if you get a branded one, inside if it does not have cash, then what's the point? His suggestion is must have a thousand dollar notes and branded wallet. His point taken since got external and no internal. Hmm, so I must reconsider since my current allowance aren't that great and my wallet would look thin. Haha. For now, I will do some researching on this too. Oops... reflection journal due wednesday. Sianzzz
{/One month ago Posting
Monday, November 2, 2009 ( Monday, November 02, 2009 )
Didn't get the chance to post this previously.
乐翻
奇怪，众所周知，我擅长表达于母语但是每当我写blog都用英语。原应是使用华语较兼挑简单。如果你有读的话，那你懂我英文多糟。我满讨厌遵守写标准英文的必要。可能是懒惰或是方式很多，有时我酝用方式一致让我觉得闷透了。讲究华语的我英文不适合我。
这几天都没什么东西做让我觉得很无趣。唯一欣慰的是跟其他人薪水还一样。现在，我能想到的是把握时间做些私事，可惜客户没网络让我们使用。我已经去打听下一个学期会据有挑战性。趁现在做些功课准备就绪。想问周围有没有游戏软件可以交给我。哈哈。
我看不如我利用这时间写我的blog (华语版), reflection and e-journal. 问题是周末要做什么呀？太多有的没的困扰着。看一下我工司的同事忙忙碌碌有一点可怜。没办法都是混口饭吃的，必须打拼做出事业。看来明年即将毕业的我，是时侯做一个决定了。
{/2nd gear
Thursday, October 29, 2009 ( Thursday, October 29, 2009 )
Well I haven't write my reflection in my book though all is in soft copy. Shall start copying tonite bits by bits so that I can complete by tmr nite. Sat has to go back to school for the connect section. Starting to adapt well to the working environment. Now at client place doing some vouching stuffs. Quite routine work as have to search for files and look at invoices and DO. At least one good new is that I have confirmed my grp mates and all are ready to work. Now my worrying part is the SIP report that we have to complete by JAn. Haven't really start researching. Shall do so next mon since I wil be in office. Next week may or may not be busy depending on the manager. It's just a few week more and I will be back in sch for 2 to 3months. Fast sia since year 1 I have tot of this day. I like to plan early for things and I can said most are in place right now. Ns is the other thing after study. Not going to think of that right now. Enjoying now. Ciao...
